Last night before church Dillon was laying on the living room floor in a prop I made him out of blankets. He was sitting up a little with the blanket surrounding him completely to keep him in place. I walked into the living room, which was fairly dark, to get Dillon ready for church. I turned on the light and as soon as I did Dillon started moving his arms, legs, and head. Did he see the light? If so, why doesn't he always react to it? This leads me to wonder if I should have hope or not.
Pr 13:12 Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life
How do I know when my hope is going to make my heart sick and when to have hope because it will become a tree of life? It is something I decide or am I supposed to hope until God tells me otherwise? Is God telling me to stop hoping by my true belief that he is going to be blind? Or am I, as my husband says, just being pessimistic? Am I giving up on God and Dillon to say that I don't think he will ever see or am I just preparing myself in case that is reality?
If anyone has gone through a hard situation like this where you didn't know if you should have hope or not, please comment and tell me if you decided to keeping hoping or not and how it turned out. I know every situation is different and just because God answered you one way doesn't mean it will be the same for me - but I am just interested to see how God worked in other people's lives when they were at a point of not even knowing if they should have hope! If you do not want it posted but are willing to share your story with me my email is firstname.lastname@example.org Thank you!